Mental Health

A couple of months back I heard about a lady who jumped off a bridge with her son because life was too difficult. A few weeks back I heard about a father who took his own life, because PTSD was much to bear. A few days ago I read about a teenager who took her life, she wrote a letter agonizing how bad her state was, and nobody understood or could help. I share this as a voice who conquered, I share this as a voice who understands, and lastly......I share this as a voice to bring awareness.

Seventeen years ago I too suffered, I too had endless pain.

I felt broken, I wanted to scream, I wanted a way out.

Many friends I did have, some family still remained,

but the pain cried louder and louder.

Nor money, nor drugs, nor enough friends could be enough.

I battled, I cried, I silenced and smiled.

Three times I laid plans to numb the pain that could not be shared.

I couldn't share it, because I couldn't understand it.

All three times I ended hospitalized.

The trigger was my father's death, everything else stumbled from it.

Nothing numbed it enough to calm the torment inside my head;

therapist, anti-depressants, meetings, doctors....nothing.

Why do you ask? If I knew the answer many people could be saved.

Slowly as I got older, and wiser I learnt to cope, I learnt to deal.

I am no longer haunted by the escape of death,

I grew spiritually, and mentally.

Even in my darkest nights, and most stressful days.... I breath and deal.

I am no longer suffocated, running..... however.... life has many curves

there are trials, there are storms, there are unanswered questions and things don't always go right...

but that's okay.... I am still growing... I am still learning and most importantly I am NOW sincerely smiling.

Always be kind, and never judge. we all have our battles.

If you have ever experienced something like this, you are not alone.

If you haven't, know..... it does exist and being kind can go a long way.

if you are currently in this state, know that eventually it does get better if you hang on. Try to find a positive and focus on that, try to count the good and neglect the bad, and ALWAYS... take the time and take care of YOU!

-We all fall down, but we get up.